Reminder

 

"Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be–a roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a complete stranger–but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are sometimes the most important ones.

If someone loves you, give love back to them in whatever way you can. Not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen to what they have to say.

Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow will have in store. You learn a lesson in life each day you live. Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday." — Unknown

Rage

Yesterday I went with the bf to the batting cages to release some rage. I've been so angry lately it felt sooo friggin good to swing at something with a bat. I wonder if there is someplace you can go and just go all out on a car with a bat, like junky cars away. I bet that would be really stress relieving. I would be a regular. :)

Know Better

I'm always surprised at how insensitive medical students can be. We are bombarded with useless facts and complex pathways that will never be relevant in clinical practice and then we blow off classes like "On Becoming a Doctor". I'm not saying that no one takes it seriously, but some people have no social skills whatsoever. Maybe social skills is the wrong word, I meant the common decency to know when is the right time to speak and whether what they are saying is inappropriate or not. As future doctors aren't we supposed to realize what a touchy topic a person's health condition is?

I know having a chronic, potentially physically disfiguring condition is hard, but it's even harder when someone constantly asks and prods at you about it. I know it's just part of accepting it. I know I can't hide from it forever. BUT IT SUCKS. I try not to let it get to me, make me any less confident, or even pity myself so I try to remind myself that some people do not know any better.

I guess I'm just beating around the bush but I am just fed up with people saying things to me without thinking first. It's insulting and hurtful and makes me want to punch them in the face... I was torn between being a bigger person and just ripping them a new one, because they obviously need to know that the way they are acting is unacceptable but in the end I tried to take the high road, because there will always be idiots out there.

ugh