Rage

Yesterday I went with the bf to the batting cages to release some rage. I've been so angry lately it felt sooo friggin good to swing at something with a bat. I wonder if there is someplace you can go and just go all out on a car with a bat, like junky cars away. I bet that would be really stress relieving. I would be a regular. :)

Know Better

I'm always surprised at how insensitive medical students can be. We are bombarded with useless facts and complex pathways that will never be relevant in clinical practice and then we blow off classes like "On Becoming a Doctor". I'm not saying that no one takes it seriously, but some people have no social skills whatsoever. Maybe social skills is the wrong word, I meant the common decency to know when is the right time to speak and whether what they are saying is inappropriate or not. As future doctors aren't we supposed to realize what a touchy topic a person's health condition is?

I know having a chronic, potentially physically disfiguring condition is hard, but it's even harder when someone constantly asks and prods at you about it. I know it's just part of accepting it. I know I can't hide from it forever. BUT IT SUCKS. I try not to let it get to me, make me any less confident, or even pity myself so I try to remind myself that some people do not know any better.

I guess I'm just beating around the bush but I am just fed up with people saying things to me without thinking first. It's insulting and hurtful and makes me want to punch them in the face... I was torn between being a bigger person and just ripping them a new one, because they obviously need to know that the way they are acting is unacceptable but in the end I tried to take the high road, because there will always be idiots out there.

ugh

Talent

Quality wise I don't know how great these are, but they look pretty awesome. The 2nd and 3rd ones are "Silent" violins and are electric violins.

They're so amazinggg!!!



I love their version of requiem for a dream that was adapted for the movie Lord of the Rings, renamed Requiem for a Tower. They look so intense while they play its so pretty! After going to our school talent show it made me wish I had kept practicing the violin. Hopefully in between studying I could practice..

Anywhere Else

I'm on the 5th floor of the library in a windowless corner wishing I could be anywhere else but here. I'm especially wishing I were in bed cuddled in my freshly washed comforter that Charlie recently peed on... I can't believe we are in our final weeks of med school. Just 7 moar weeks and FREEDOM! I will be back in Houston for a few weeks to shadow and relax with the fam and then its off to Guatemala for 3 weeks. I'm super pumped up to go.. now I just need someone to practice my spanish with haha. Anyway last week I felt like I was dying, I even went to the ER because I couldn't go to the regular doc for the chest pains I was having. It was weird having to wear a gown, letting someone put an IV in and getting chest x rays, but I'm okay now. Soon after I got better I got 2 stys .. sties? in one eye! I felt like I looked like the hunchback or something, oh yeah and I fell down some stairs in the rain, that was awesome.

Hopefully I don't kill myself before I come back to Houston in a week. :D





Wishing I were here!

I'm Dying

I thought I was dying on Thursday when I diagnosed myself with an enlarged left atria that was compressing my esophagus... but it may just be acid reflux. Anyway it's been keeping me up at nights so I'm attempting to go to the doctor today.

I keep trying to upload pictures but blog won't let me :(

I played my first IM softball game yesterday and guess what? yeah I got hit with the ball, of course haha Lets just say it was a pretty brutal game. I'd like to think we could have made a comeback if there were like 15 innings or something. BUT I did score the first run for my team.. yay I'm not completely useless woot!

I have yet to unpack all my things from my trip. After I drove back to San Antonio yesterday at 6AM I unpacked food, did 2 loads of laundry (that haven't been folded), slept, and dragged myself to 3 hrs of neuroscience. After I got home I had to wash charlie... cause he peed in my bathroom only he didn't pee a big pool he just kind of sprinkled here and there... then I went to softball, went to dinner for a friend's bday, ran to HEB to get lightbulbs.. and other misc, then just stayed home instead of going out drinking for his birthday, it felt amazing to sleep at 11:30.

Hi Cutie

Charlie makes everything better.







9 MOAR days?? Spring break ima comin! I can't believe I've only blogged once this year, med school has gotten the best of me. I haven't been juicing lately, except when I go back home but I have hit up the gym a LOT more than I did before, which was never.. haha BEACH BODY! wheee

Okayy back to studying.

Nothing Tastes As Good As Skinny Feels

This year I'm taking my new years resolution seriously. My mom was getting really into juicing and so I hopped on board. We ordered the Omega 8005 juicer and it came in today. 5PM was the last piece of solid food I had, and it wasn't really food it was tapioca. I followed the recipe below:

handful spinach

3 stalks of kale

2 golden delicious apples

small handful parsley

1 lemon

1 cucumber

This was a similar recipe to the one on the documentary called "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" which is on netflicks. It's a really good movie, great motivation to be the healthiest you can be.

By no means do I think that fasting for a day or two will make me look like... THIS

But I do hope that I can lose 10 pounds and keep them off for the rest of the year. I figured if I'm not in the best shape of my life now, I will never be! Plus having a fit, toned body while you're in your 20s is probably the best time to use it. It would be highly unlikely that I could keep juicing in San Antonio, 1. because I do not have a juicer and 2. because I don't have time to do it that often. SO hopefully by doing the following things this year I can accomplish my goal.

I will not drink tapioca, honestly tapioca might as well be little balls of fat! and I drink it almost... any chance I have really.

I will not eat certain fast foods.. (i.e mcdonalds, jackinthebox, wendys) I will make an exception for chickfila... only because its really close to school, but I will limit that as well

I will try to eat one serving of vegetables at every meal.

I will take the stairs instead of the elevator whenever I can.

I will not eat after 11 o'clock.

I will not drink soda (probably going to be realllly hard since I rely on caffeine it dr. pepper to keep me awake those long nights of studying)

Anyway while I can I will try to juice.

I bought like $26 worth of vegetables, that will hopefully last me 4 meals... took 30 minutes to shop, 30 minutes to wash, and prob and hour to juice.

It tasted okay... at first it tastes disgusting but your taste buds acclimate after awhile. My body is probably recognizing all these nutrients as foreign.. hehe

I'll leave you with a picture of bam bam and charliebear. Updates on the juice thang when I get a chance.