Better Off

Things that are making me happy ... starbucks rice krispies with big chunks of marshmellows, chawly, amazing friends and foxtails. 

Have hope.. be happy!

Be Better

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past as better than it was, the present worst then it really is and the future less resolved than it will be

- Marcel Pagnol

When people doubt you, it's easy to start believing them. Instead, challenge yourself to be better. 

Ever since I've moved to San Antonio my room has never been as clean, except for that one time my parents came up to visit me and I stashed my mess under my bed :p Anyway it was a good reflection of how I was feeling. Kind of lost, in a rut, with no plan or direction... So I changed all that today. I picked up the pile of clothes, dusted off the shelves, and made my BED! It makes all the difference when I go to bed. Instead of shifting things here and there and curling up in the one corner of my bed that has not been invaded by clothes or books I have the whole bed to myself! When you want things done you just have to do it. Don't get bogged down in the little things that happen day to day that don't go right. 

Also, don't over-analyze things. There are things you have to accept that you cannot change. Like the way other people feel or what they think of you. Try as you might, it is hard to change their perception of you. It's good in the beginning when the slate is clean, but once it's been dinged, it's pretty hard to smooth things over again.  

Oh yeah... and don't get fat. I fall into a vicious cycle of binge eating when I'm down or stressed.. then pants start to get tight and it makes me even more depressed. So put down the pizza and don't go to jack in the box AND wendys in one outing. 

Photo vomit...

Charlie taking the stuffing out of the already stuffing-less bear. 

 

No shame...

Belated

What I wore to the Linkin park concert... that should be another entry in itself.. but I'm so tired right now..

I got inspired to write a real blog post after reading my friend morris's blog. I guess it's easy to get caught up in the grind that you forget the small things that keep you sane. 

Although it's such a simple concept I've recently been reminded that you can't please everyone. I need to stop making commitments that I can't fulfill. You just end up disappointing everyone, including yourself. So I was going through a rough patch a few weeks back, doubting myself about everything... I had pretty much convinced myself I would be a crazy dog lady and that my prime was over. I surprised myself though and dug myself out of that pity party. I know how can someone be lonely in a class of 220 students, with a dog waiting lovingly at home, a groupme of close friends and cousins, and a family that loves to hear your phone calls... seriously my mom called me crying the night I drove back to SA last weekend. I've just been used to having that one significant other to spill my guts to and it was weird not having that. But I think I've found a balance to everything now, and I know now how much of my life I really have control over. It's interesting that people can feel helpless sometimes, when really you have the power to do anything and feel any thing you want. Blah blah blah okay pictures.. that's all this blog is good for :)

Pics from my instagram... finally using it after months of making an account and never bothering to figure out how it worked

 

Oh yeah on another note... more people are getting engaged... awesome 

Life

The jacket I was super excited about last post came in. I've managed to wear it at least 3 times already even though there never seems to be an occasion to dress up in SA. I like to dress up a little when I feel stressed out or sad and lately that's been happening a lot. It was so bad that I didn't even want to get out of bed or put together anything cute. Things are slowly getting better, it helps that the linkin park concert is this tues!

I used to hate all things lipstick, or even came in a lipstick like tube, but these are so smooth and moisturizing I feel like they're more like tinted balm instead. Anyway went a little crazy and tried these 3 colors: peach, soft nude, and coral. I pretty much love them all, even though seeing your lips in a drastically different color is a little weird and costume-y.

Anyway blogging is cutting into my precious sleeptime now. So goodnight!

Fancy Mustard

This is the problem with reading blogs.. I'm always tempted to buy everything! But I honestly had to have her jacket. I love the color, 3/4 sleeve, textured material, cut ..everything! So I ordered it on this site. 

Also love the back! Anyway hopefully I fit the xs. Oh an if you are a new customer at revolve you get 30% off... just saying :)

LP PT 2

AUG 28th.

I have no class that day... it was a sign that going to this concert was meant to be. TICKETS BOUGHT! 

Postcard

Spectacular views on our way to and from Xela

*sorry I wrote this post a week ago and never posted, if that makes more sense


It's already been a week. 2 more weeks still feels like forever though. So I left off at Casa Manen and so many experiences have occurred since then. I will try to recall everything that has happened. Sunday after we settled into the hotel we left for Xela to meet with the girls for an hour or so before dinner. I was completely unprepared for the barrage of hugs, tears, and kisses. Of course the girls were more excited and connected to the members of our team that had visited in past years, but they still hugged and clung to me and the new members. I tried to get to know them with what little spanish I knew, basically asked their names and age and was completely confused when they gave me long answers which I didn't understand. We ate a beautiful cake that the girls baked and then the sisters gave us a tour of the orphange/home. The girls were so excited to show us their dorm rooms and all the specialty rooms where they learned a trade. The orphanage had a room for embroidery, sewing, baking, art, classrooms, and chapel. The building was amazingly clean compared to the dirt and mud roads that led up to it.

After leaving the girls we went back to the hotel, ate a simple meal and had a devotional. Then afterwards the medical team met to set the game plan for the next day.

Breakfast always starts at 715. Monday morning we ate a huge breakfast and headed to the church down the dirt road from the orphanage. We unloaded the supplies, set up the pharmacy, triage, and clinic areas.  Towards the back of the church the sisters had already set up a semi private clinic room which consisted of a pew with a sheet hanging by rope to conceal the area. Already there was a line of patients there for us to see.Every 2 hours or so we would rotate areas. So the first day we were off to a slow start. I began in the triage area, taking in patients,asking them for their chief complaints and taking vitals. ALL IN ESPANOL! We saw 48 patients the first day.

more later..