Howdy

Newest addition to the fam! This was a picture from Thanksgiving, I've been so behind on blogging eek.

I use this palette all the time, it's the only one I carry around now.

I decided to start my new years resolution early. This year I need to learn to exercise more patience, as well as my mind and body.

GOAL: weigh a steady 110 (currently 123 :X, and that's not muscle)

Just today I unsubscribed to at least 10 retail email subscriptions. NO more clutter, and no more temptation to online shop (less anyway). I also plan to take better care of myself, even if it is just a small task of sticking to my nightly facial ritual. I found a good cleanser and GREAT moisturizer. No matter how tired (intoxicated) no more sleeping with a face full of make-up.

Since I turned 23, I started looking into nighttime eye creams.. I know the wrinkles are somewhere under the bags. I use one from the philosophy brand every night.

Wedding pictures SOON! :) Congrats to my seester stina!!!

Charliebear

I will update soon on everything that's happened, but for now enjoy pictures of charliebear!

He's worried he'll drown cause of his short stubby legs...

He's a stinky pup from playing in the rain.

He likes to play under my bed :)

Up to no good :P

Playlist

My recently added playlist is full of katy perry, selena gomez, and demi lovato.... best study music ever! haha

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Blue and Grey

Today I had the day off, my physio test is tomorrow, why am I blogging again? I guess I feel okay this time around, by the 3rd round of tests you usually find your comfort zone and I definitely don't feel as stressed out. Anyway I tried to study at Starbucks today but I feel like places like that have so many creepers. The guys that come in at 11-2PM on a weekday! and pretend to read a newspaper when they're really staring at you. Seriously?!

I've been thinking lately that I'm really grateful for the people that I've met whether the experiences have been good/bad/painful, I've learned a lot.

Thoughts

Pumpkins will rot after a week outside.

I wish I had seat heaters in my car.

One can never have enough socks.

I'm a bad listener.

I'm a demi lovato fan girl.

Dissecting a penis is not as fun as it sounds.

I don't want to be a pediatrician.

Today I went to hear Eva Kor, a holocaust survivor of the medical experiments done on twins. I cried twice, and the rest of the time I was trying to not cry... She told a horrifying but important story that stressed the importance of medical ethics. It is hard to remain humane sometimes, especially in anatomy lab.. it was well worth the hour away from studying to listen.

And it made me think of my family... :) I miss everyone!!!

Hayy Pumpkin

Happy Halloween everyone! Mine is the pumpkin on the right :D

Nothing like fresh roasted pumpkin seeds.

I was a fox.. not a squirrel!!

Haven't really been in the mood to blog.. this month has been pretty rough.. mentally and emotionally, I'm really hoping this next round of tests does not kill me. Also I've been sick with SOMETHING for the past 2 weeks now.. I've forgotten what it is like to not cough or have a runny nose. Even shopping has not given me any joy.. what is going on?!

Pleats and Ruffles Please

Yesterday we (houston/san an) had beautiful weather apparently, according to facebook anyway. I wouldn't know because I was cooped up inside studying all day (with a break to paint my nails) Finally I couldn't take it anymore and had to drag myself out of my pj's and actually try to look decent for the general public :) I've been super excited to wear my pink ruffle skirt I got from modcloth as of recent and I couldn't think of a better place to wear it than a CUPCAKE shop!! I've been meaning to check out Gourmet Cupcakes in San An so I ventured out and felt sunlight for the first time in awhile :D Need more Vitamin D!!

Shades: Tory Burch

Tank: Loft

Skirt: Modcloth

Necklace: UO

I keep wanting to touch it when I wear it, and twirl once or twice..

ahhhmazing Yeah that's right I could eat all 12

My nails cheer me up while I study.. They match my highlighters, but also make me look like I have jaundice hehe

Oh what med school does to you... I was doing the dishes earlier and looking at the Dawn dishwashing soap and giggled to myself thinking.. ahh DAWN of NEUTROPHILIA! which led to golgi apparatus which then led to a string of histo junk that I have to memorize...

Hello World

I'm going to blog because I want to and I don't care that I have 6 tests coming up or that I have a quiz tomorrow... Sometimes I don't even know what I'm learning anymore, like the days everything just seem to blur together. Today I woke up and conjugated verbs for my medical spanish course and thought to myself... HOW CAN I LEARN ANOTHER LANGUAGE when I have a million other things to memorize :( Not only that but I've learned I cannot roll my r's or wink my right eye for the life of me.

Also I've joined a million clubs and volunteered for a million different events, one of which requires me to play with preemie babies...

This week I joined APAMSA, which I had no idea what it stood for (Asian Pacific American Medical Student Association..? I'm guessing...) I just knew they were serving free lunch which was not lenny's or pizza... I scored a tofu banh mi.

I am more dedicated to my dermatology interest group and Physicians for Human Rights group, which I blog for now. I'll link it someday when I get around to it.

This week I also interviewed for a Global Health Trip. I might be going to Guatemala for 3 weeks this summer!!!!!!! AND THEN thanks to my shower curtain I realized just how close in proximity it was to Mexico... hmmmmmm But nonetheless It will be a great way to implement all this spanish I'm learning and help at their clinic as well as the orphanage. *crosses fingers*

These are pics from last week. I've been into crop tops and eccentrically placed pockets. The only thing with crop tops is I feel like I need a 6-pack.. or at least a flatter stomach. I don't know how that is going to happen since I eat so much crap and drink so much soda to keep myself awake to study. I've been doing zumba regularly every wednesday and friday, but I'm starting to think I need to spice it up with something else.

Back to memorizing a bajillion pathogens BAIZ

UH Love?

We are taking a break in physio class so I decided to post up some things I'm in love with right now. I have probably 3 maxi dresses and they are the most comfortable, most girly things in my closet. I tend to dislike the jersey materials of most maxi and I don't like the striped ones that take over your body. I try to stick with chiffon materials for maxis.

Ark & Co

I love the neckline and print of the first maxi. It was also on modcloth but it was sold out.

Olive + Olivia

I have to have this polka dot maxi... <3

Modcloth

One of Those Days

I savor the 5 minute drive to school where I can sing my heart out in the car while people stare through their windows.

Epic VLOG

Thanks to my good friend KHANG!!! I am posting up my first video log! I've been meaning to do this for awhile but my place has always been too messy and I haven't had time since school started. I woke up this morning and cleaned hardcore for almost 4 hours... I hope you guys enjoy.. you finally know how I've been living for the past 6 weeks :)

I know my voice is really annoying on camera right?!

I forgot to show you guys my drawers on video so I took some pictures, this is the left side... lots of candies... essential for studying.

The right drawer.. I LOVE all office supplies as you can see. :D

Anyway I took a picture of my outfit from yesterday, but I decided against posting it cause after I got home I looked crazy. I went out for reverse happy hour and then to a classmate's birthday party. I finally got to wear heels even though I was the only one.. who cares! Reverse happy hour was pretty terrible, and one spilled drink later I was ready to go home.

Nutshell

I NEED to blog. It's been way too long since the last substantial blog. I feel like it's been months. Every day feels like forever yet overall time has been flying! Module 1 of medical school has taught me a lot, not only material-wise but a lot about myself and how I function best. I've been pushing myself a lot to make it clear my intentions to go into Dermatology and so far things are shaping up pretty well. I am the MS1 rep for the derm interest group, and I have been asking around for research opportunities which I am very optimistic about. Early on I don't think I realized the workload that would come with med school, of course I had expectations and preconceived notions of how it would be, but I ADMIT I was not prepared!

I complained about the MCAT, but I think I study as rigorously for my classes on the daily basis with no end in sight!! Sometimes I think... do I even care what I look like, do I care that I've been in the same sweatshirt for a week straight? Do I have time to shower.. or eat.. or sleep. Not only have I been depriving myself of normal essentials I really feel it taking a toll on my health. I have yet to find that perfect balance, but I'm hoping in this next module things will fall into place.

Things I don't need to waste time on...

1. online shopping

2. reading and finding new blogs (or maybe I'll limit this to once a week)

3. finding/dl'ing new music

4. leisurely reading

This is the BEST ever. I tried to do without this thermos, but nothing compares. It is called the Thermos-Nissan I got mine from Target and it was about the same price. It does exactly what it is supposed to do.. keep your cold drinks cold and hot stuff hot. Also it fits perfectly in my cup holder and backpack side pocket. It is also one handed so you only need one hand to open the cup, in addition it has a little easy sip thing :) (Also no stupid straw, sucky thing like most other waterbottles)

I got distracted by all my beautiful writing utensils. I realized all the pens pencils I own are pilot brand. :)

Finally found a really decent asian/sushi place in San An. It's called Wasabi and it is literally 3 minutes away from my apartment. I believe I will be a regular.

So a week an a half before my test week of hell began I suffered through this (above)!! I had bit my lower lip and two canker sores started growing where I bit it, they slowly enlarged and merged into one GIANT ANGRY monster on my inner lip, constantly rubbing against my teeth. I stopped eating for like a week, I couldn't smile, my lips hurt to touch and were constantly dry, I couldn't talk without looking like a freak, and it was hard not to drool. AHH Anyway I know this picture is really gross but I couldn't not post it... when they started merging it was sorta heartshaped... see it?! haha everything is all good now, I think I've gained back all the weight that I lost.

Just some bakery pictures from one of the days I was not very productive.

Thoughts

1. Don't compare yourself to others, you will feel inadequate and far more mediocre

2. Coffee + hot cocoa gives you superhuman powers

That is all

Sloppy

I should be studying, but I'm taking a break to post up these lovelies... I wish I could wear heels to school, but that is totally unpractical so for now I have put aside the platforms and 5 inch stilettos :( That doesn't mean I can't lust after these gorgeous shoes though :)

Asos

ALSO how awesome is this ring?!!?! I WANTS!

BCBG

Alright back to studying.. toodles

Week Ends

What have I been feeding myself?

Every morning I have a bologna sandwich... That is at least 14 sandwiches... sometimes I eat while I'm packing my stuff, changing, in the car, walking to class. Portable and filling... Most of the time I will cook on anatomy lab days, which sounds gross but it's usually because I'm too brain dead after lab to do anything really productive. So I cook, clean, run errands, or occasionally blog :) Since I've run out of frozen home cooked meals I've been buying premarinated meats, adding a vegetable and voila dinner and lunch for the week.

Ex: salad and teriyaki chicken

On Friday there was an MS1 MS2 banquet, which was fun.. People showed up drunk from the party bus and partied it up. If this is any indication of the wild escapades that will take place after every module exam, san antonio better watch out!

Spur of the moment online purchase at 4:30 in the morning. The jacket is a two layer chiffon material and it is PERFECT! Besides being a little wrinkly, it is so fun to wear. It is light enough to wear outside in the blazing texas heat, yet still warm enough for the library. Also I love the color, I've been really into blush pink tones, you can't see but my nails are a matching color.

Kimono jacket: Urbanoutfitters

Shorts: AE

Tank: Gap

Necklace: Forever21

Today after lab I came home and made BBQ chicken and potatoes. For the potatoes I just covered in olive oil, pepper, salt, and paprika and stuck everything in the over. Potatoes, why are you so easy and delicious yet so high in carbs!!!! :( Anyway time to study.

ADIOS

Time For Fun

Barely midway through the week and I feel like it's been a thousand yearsss... okay exaggeration, but it's been a long week. I felt extra girly today wearing this somewhat full, pink, frilly skirt.

Sweater: JCrew

Tank: Gap

Skirt: Zara

So today during a study break I perused the directory at the La Cantera outdoor mall. I hope to plan a trip possibly tomorrow?! (We get a half day tomorrow wHoOoooOo) Anyway it definitely rivals The Galleria. The only downside... is it's OUTDOORS! who's bright idea was that..seriously, it's texas. Anyway the reason I am so excited is that it has UrbanOut, forever21, AND a ZARA! ohmygah along with numerous other stores that I heart.

Before I left houston the last time my parents packed me a bag with all the ingredients for canh cai..which they said it was impossible to screw up. Basically the bag contained cai (vegetables) and dried shrimp. I boiled water and the shrimp.. and threw in the veggies with a sprinkle of pepper.. and ta da haha

Leaf necklace I got from urbanoutfitters. It actually opens up like a locket....... Unfortunately I have no pictures that are leaf shaped.. haha

Anyway time to sleep.

Breakkk

What did I do this weekend:

1. zumba

2. After a nice workout a few classmates and I went downtown to an event called First Friday. The first friday of every month a sort of art fair/stands of handcrafted goodies are sold on the streets. We hit the streets and immediately scoured the area for food. In the end we didn't spend much time exploring, instead we spent the majority of the night at an ice house called The Friendly Spot.

3. After 11 PM, we decided to roll out and hit up Bonham Exchange, the most happening gay bar/club in san antonio.

4. Fast forward to 230 AM, I am locked out of my own apartment, not because I forgot my keys btw.

5. 4 AM instant noodles

6. 4:30 AM online shopping

7. 5 AM snooze...

On Sat I tried out a tapioca/hookah place called Suck It San Antonio... boba was alright not quite up to houston standards but it will do. I hated how the place smelled like hookah and didn't have enough tables, def won't be studying there.

The summarized outline is the result of 1 full week of med school. I am shorthanding everything and cutting out the fat.

The rest of the weekend was filled with studying... In 3 hours today I covered 202 exam questions, that blew my mind.. I felt nonfunctional after cramming so hard.

This video was post below by one of my classmates, I love it!!! I sorta feel this way now....

Christmas Again!

I've opened so many packages this week, it feels like Christmas! Today was my FIRST real anatomy lab, in which I helped dissect the back of our cadaver. As I am typing this I still reek of formaldehyde, phenol, and prob isopropanol and whatever else they throw in the embalming fluid. YES, I have showered.. and yes the smell is that permeating that I still stink. The other day I bought some safety glasses and cheapy shoes that I wouldn't care if they got ruined and I'm sooo glad I did. Fluid and fatty tissue were flying everywhere!

Anyway I also got these reeeeeeeeeaaally comfy shoes above, also from target cause they were like $7... the cost of a lunch! They feel so good too.. I <3 boat shoes haha

Today I received 3 packages. What a sweet surprise. I thought I wasn't going to get my anatomy atlas for another week cause it shipped all the way from india..

Also I'm in love with my deep purple stethoscope. I got it engraved all professional and errrthang. :) I assumed I was going to pass and graduate medical school, hence the Dr. title hehe. Anywayyyy I'm super tired from leaning over the dissecting tank all day, we were in the lab for probably 3+ hours. I'm spending my downtime blogging.. so I need to start studying soon. More to comeee :)