Doubts

In your ocean, I'm ankle deep

I feel the waves crashin' on my feet

It's like I know where I need to be

But I can't figure out, yeah I can't figure out

Just how much air I will need to breathe

When your tide rushes over me

There's only one way to figure out

Will you let me drown, will you let me drown?

Hey now, this is my desire

Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful

To touch me, I know that I'm in reach

'Cause I am down on my knees.

I'm waiting for something beautiful

Oh, something beautiful

And the water is rising quick

And for years I was scared of it

We can't be sure when it will subside

So I won't leave your side, no I can't leave your side.

Hey now, this is my desire

Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful

To touch me, I know that I'm in reach

'Cause I am down on my knees.

I'm waiting for something beautiful

Oh, something beautiful

In a daydream, I couldn't live like this.

I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful.

When I wake up, I know I will have

No, I still won't have what I need.

Hey now this is my desire

Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful

To touch me, I know that I'm in reach

Cause I am down on my knees

I'm waiting for something beautiful

Oh, something beautiful

Needtobreathe - Something Beautiful

When it comes down to it, how do you pick between two loves? I had a hard hitting realization today that I have to be prepared for the worst. I may have to watch something that I have worked so hard to keep slowly crumble before me. Almost everyday I hear, medicine is great but it comes with a sacrifice. Sacrifice of health, time, vitality, and relationships. I hope for the best, but I'm not one to know when to let go. It is not a one way street and as hard as I may try, it isn't always enough. Doubts can be the seed of death and I have had plenty running through my mind.

A relationship that I cherish and have always hoped for the best. No matter what happens I know I never gave up, and did everything I could for something I thought would last forever.